Chandler Day 207: Lolita

DSC04094For some reason I could not sleep tonight. I was not tired, though I should have been, and I was completely restless. I tossed and turned and tried but just couldn’t fall asleep. So I got up and walked downstairs with this book. I’ve been reading it for a while and it hasn’t been the easiest to get through. But reading a book has always helped me slow down and relax. It calms me down and helps me sleep. I don’t know why, but it always works.

Brandy Day89: It’ll Rise Tomorrow

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The beauty and ease in a sunset. I love them. The simplicity of it melting into the earth. The sense of peace my heart endures watching it happen. Stress is out the window. I’m all of a sudden at ease and happy. I love that its something so simple that can make me happy. Like a band aid in the game of life.
Shot where I always shoot, but from a different perspective.

Chandler Day 76: All Clear

DSC02177I recently got a new job that I work every evening. Its hard work but I’m getting used to it. It pays well and I finally be able to start affording things. But it’s nice. It certainly keeps me from getting bored in the evenings and it lets me clear my head. I go into work, work hard for a while and my head is clear and things just work themselves out. I don’t know why. It just kinda relieves my stress for some reason. And then I have a nice drive home on empty highways. I wasn’t having the best day today, it being Monday, and I was stressed and upset about things. But after work I was calm and happy. I was in a much better mood and it allowed me to apologize to someone that I had hurt.

Chandler Day 69: Tune It All Out

DSC02100After a long day, hard work, arguing and just feeling stressed out, it was time to tune things out. I just had to relax and chill. So I laid in bed, put in my headphones and picked up Brave New World. It feels so nice to just tune everything and everyone out for a little bit. To just be alone, with music and a book. It calms me down, cheers me up and helps me think. I needed it and after a night’s sleep, I was ready to start a new day.

Chandler Day 65: Lines vs. Stress

DSC01899A pencil, a ruler, and 896 1/4th inch squares = calm. When I was learning to cope with my anxiety and panic attacks, one of the ways they told me to get out of them was to do a repetitive task. Something mindless task that I had to focus on. Something to get my mind off what I was panicking about. And it works. I don’t know why, but it calms me down. I don’t hardly ever have panic attacks now, but doing this still calms me down. Stress, fatigue and anger just piled up tonight, and I had to get out of it. A long week, too many tests, a new job and being pissed off are not a good combination. And I know I have a temper. I know my weaknesses. So I sat down, and 896 1/4th inch squares later, I was calm.

Brandy Day62: End of the Earth

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Perception: the organization, identification and interpretation of sensory information in order to represent and understand the environment.
I shoot abstractly, or that’s the way you see it, at least your seeing it from a different view.
Such is life and the lessons it teaches us. Look at them and learn. Take all that you can from a situation, good, bad or indifferent.
Everything will be OK in the end, if its not OK, then its not the end.
Shot as the day came to a close, the sun set to rest with my thoughts racing too much to make sense of any of it. Morse Reservoir, Noblesville IN.

Chandler Day 57: Relax

DSC01729Finally time to relax. After a long, stressful day full of tests, essays, and worries about classes, work, money and the future, I get to settle down and relax with a good book, a cup of tea in my favorite mug and a today’s post to write. I don’t handle stress well and when things to start to build up, even a little bit, I tend to let things get out of control. One or two stressful things turns into me worrying about countless things, doubting my decisions, having anxiety attacks, and me basically reevaluating my life. It’s ridiculous, I know. But after talking to my parents, getting some good news, and finishing my homework, I settled down. And now I get to relax. And I need to learn to control my stress, which is much easier said than done.