Brandy Day286: A New Kind Of Forever

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Today it arrived, 8 years 5 months & 5 days. I guess I always assumed that the headstone would make it hurt more. Finalize things. The truth of it though, it brought some much needed, long overdue peace.
I’m not sure how to explain it in words. I never questioned when his parents would have it or what would be on it. The realization of it all came on my birthday. Then I was shown the rough draft and cried. Cried because of the meaning. The existence behind something that had been missing.
Momma Lynch text me today saying it had arrived, and with the text she sent pictures. I cried. I couldn’t breathe. Not from sadness but from the overwhelming feeling of comfort. Obviously I finished what I was in the middle of doing and headed to the cemetery. It was more beautiful in person. Artistically amazing, just as he was. The two circles on the bottom corners are medals that his family was given after donating to save others. ❤ The back, among other items, holds two beautiful pieces left longer than any life or memory. The top left corner holds my exact turtle tattoo. His mom says when he left he took a part of me. The bottom right corner says 'Love, Jordan', my most favorite thing ever. It's traced so it's his handwriting. Signed almost to insinuate this is the end.
His parents and brother did an amazing job putting something together that no family should have to do for a child or younger sibling.
I love you guys to the moon & back and I'm more than certain he wouldn't change a thing on it if given the opportunity.
40,000 Americans die yearly by suicide, making it the 10th leading cause of death. Every 13.3 seconds someone takes their own life, leaving those who love them to live in a whirlwind of confusion, depression and a life without closure.

Brandy Day158: Favorite Jeans Friday

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Love them! Not one hole in them when I bought them. Both sides look like this now. They fit perfectly. The pair of jeans you cannot part with. The one pair you can wear multiple times and its ok. I’ve had them several years now and don’t see a departure date anytime soon.

Brandy Day135: Because I’m Happy…

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Whoever thought to paint a smiley face on a silo, brilliant.
Its located in the small town where I went to highschool. Drove by it countless times, though it never really struck me as an object of importance. Until today. Stopped me dead in my tracks. I smiled. So simple.
Things, words, actions, feelings, mean nothing until you’re ready for them. Open your eyes to see what has always been there.

Brandy Day128: Turtle Kisses <3

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Chris Lynch. An amazing mother. A strong woman. Beautiful. Courageous. Hopeful. Supportive. Giving. Loving. Role model. We will always have a bond, that not even death can take away.
Chris lost her son Jordan 8years ago to suicide. Standing by her side, watching her cry, the pain she endures, the moments she wants to break down, yet all the love and compassion she still has to offer. Jordan’s friends call her Momma Lynch. They bring their children over to meet someone who was always a positive influence as they grew up. Jordan’s father still, to this day, coaches the local track team where Jordan attended school.
Amazing people with more to offer, cheated of so many experiences, yet finding ways to still give back and be a part.
I love them as they are my own set of parents. Thank you. For everything you’ve done for not just me, but all whose lives you’ve touched. For raising two boys. For enduring so much pain, yet still loving and laughing. For allowing me to be a part of your life. Be a part of who you are. I love you Chris & Keith Lynch ❤

Brandy Day108: Down This Road Before

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Every time you say something to me that has hurt you in the past, I try and promise you something better. Something fun for you to look forward to. I can’t make guarantees but I can give you my word.
My word can be proven or disproven in the future.
Promise Road.

Brandy Day91: New Day Old Friend

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Peyton. Lillian’s 1st boyfriend. She LOVES him.  Lilly & Peyton met 4 going on 5 summers ago. I lived next to Peyton’s dad and met them walking Lilly one day and well, the rest is history.
Peyton’s dad is a firefighter at Grissom Air Force Base in Northern IN. I’d watch Peyton on his long weeks. They’ve always played well, so it was nothing for either of them to be at the others house.
Lilly got to see and play with Peyton today. He’s a sweetheart with the same personality as Lillian! I love them both!
Shot while watching them take a breather…