“Well, I know that I’ve messed up more than a time or two. I’ve lied like hell, I’ve done it well and I’ve got the scars to prove.”
Today was pretty intense mentally & emotionally for me. I was able to have a long overdue conversation with a dear friend. A conversation that made sense in so many ways and filled in some gaps.
I’ve struggled with faith for some time now. I was born Lutheran and then confirmed Catholic. My parents raised me to attend church every Sunday and even attend Bible school. I never got much out of it. Was it because I was forced to attend? I wasn’t ready to attend? I didn’t understand the capacity of it? Now as an adult I’ve watched religion tear my family apart and be responsible for an unaccounted number of deaths throughout the world. Such a fine subject to dance around. Speaking with another friend, TJ, about this brought tears to my eyes. I’m not going to state my beliefs, or which is right or wrong. I doubt this is what Jesus had in mind though. I’m thankful for moments like these, as hard as they are.
There’s no greater comfort than that of a best friend. The one you are lucky enough to share moments of happiness & sadness with. Unconditional loyalty, there no matter what or how ridiculous it may seem. Share adventures or lazy nights on the couch. Tears & Totinos party pizza.
Behind every strong woman is a boy with a cute pup!
‘Where words fail, music speaks.’ Hans Christian Anderson.
I love live music. Acoustic is even better. When you have someone that can sing & play as amazingly as this man, no words are needed.
I first met Jason Squier at Michaels, the bar I used to manage. He and his band played every Friday night. It was such a great time. Everyone loved them, loved us, loved Fridays. One thing led to another and I was shooting photos of them and attending every show at other venues when possible. I couldn’t get enough of Jason’s voice and demeanor when he was on stage. So captivating, relaxing & passionate. I’ve never seen someone play the guitar as delicately as him. Watching someone do what they love is so meaningful. You get a sense of peace from their passion.
A great friendship has grown from the night I first met him. He sends me rough recordings of new music as he knows I’ll give him my honest opinion. Thank you for doing what you do and doing it so well. Keep playing. Keep singing.
Shot at Tin Roof downtown Indy while strummin ‘Babylon’ David Gray
I find it more common than not that we share what we are often afraid to disclose about our self, with those close to us.
We don’t disclose our darkest of demons because we live in fear of judgement, betrayal, loss of respect, even if those demons are ones we didn’t create. Being trapped in your own personal hell of thoughts & emotions will slowly kill what makes youyou.
Listening to someone share their thoughts, someone I thought I knew. Seeing someone I care about be so vulnerable. Hurt so badly. Crying with them, not because of their tears but because I could feel the pain in their heart. Their mind. It was just as real to me as it was to them. I wonder how things would be different between us had we gone ‘demon hunting’ together.
I don’t know that I’ve ever hurt for someone the way I hurt for you. Seeing your pain. This changes nothing, other than making sense of some things. I also happen to love fishing especially with a Snoopy fishing pole!!
I’ll never be able to give you those 10 seconds or more that you often dream of but I can promise you I can give you love & trust. Fear is only felt until you realize the love and trust are real.
Thank you for loving me enough to trust me.
This photo reminds me of my childhood. The reason I’m drawn to train tracks. My grandma lived next to tracks. She made everything better. So sensible. A strong, loving, caring & beautiful woman.
I feel a sense of freedom. Standing there looking into the endless existence.
This particular track is about 12 stories above a lake. 90 years old. Solid. How was something so complex built so long ago.
It amazes me how we are where we are from where we’ve come.
Today was a fantastic day! Some great conversation, willingness, friendship & country roads. Lots of country roads <3!
This here is Mary. She is dating my younger brother Nick. Going through nursing school. Has more than an amazing personality and she’s gorgeous!
Its because of her and Nicks existence that she’s in my life.
I just wanted to take this time to thank her for being such a great friend and supporter. Your friendship and time mean more to me than you’ll ever know. Thanks for always thinking of me and being there for me. :-)!!