Today I went out to use some of the great gift cards that I got as presents. Me and Hannah hit up Half Price and Barnes & Noble and we got some great books. So now these along with the few hundred other books that I have bought I will have plenty to read over the remainder of break and next year.
This semester I have a Gender Studies class and we are all required to do a final project in which you have to discuss a certain topic that relates to gender. Keeping in line with my major change I decided to bring in art history and discuss the female nude and depiction of the female body throughout art and how it is gendered and constructed. I had to get a lot of books from a lot of different libraries and I was also able to get some great books from two very great art history professors. So here is my reading list for the next few weeks.
This is a typical evening in my room. We hang out almost every night, doing homework, reading, playing on Tumblr, talking, napping, eating and whatever else has to be done. I had fun taking this picture. Setting a timer and running back to the other side of the room, hopping up on my bed, grabbing my book and trying to act normal. I think I pulled it off. I’m glad she puts up with me and my camera. It’s interesting how not even a year ago we were strangers. I’ll admit I had a crush on her and she had no interest in me. But we gradually started talking, which looking back on it is a near miracle because I’m so shy and hardly talk to anyone. And even when we spent time together I barely talked. And here we are now. Completely comfortable with each other, side by side. We are best friends and can talk about anything.
As we sat on the couch watching TV, Hannah said we should camp out inside, stay up late and read books some time. I agreed and then she said we should do it tonight, because I had my tent with me. So we got the tent and actually set it up in the middle of her living room. It took up the entire living room and was a little difficult to set up. Then we filled it with blankets and pillows and started reading this old, badly written murder mystery book to each other. We had planned to stay up late and read all sorts of books, but we just ended up falling asleep.
I really hope I’m not the only one that gets this feeling or thought. Have you ever just looked at your significant other? Like really looked. I do that with Hannah. It comes at the most random times. I just look at her and all I can think is “Wow.” I get those butterflies in my stomach. Like the ones when you’re nervous or like you’d get around a crush or on a first date. I know it’s only been five months. But I look at her and I think of how incredibly lucky I am to be sitting across from her, looking at her. I look at her and see an amazing person. A person with a beautiful and inspiring personality. I look at her and see how incredibly gorgeous she is. I look at her how you would look at someone beautiful that you had never seen before. I look at her and my heartbeat picks up and I smile and I have to catch my breath. I think of how lucky I am to be loved by her. I think of the very first time I saw her and how I thought I’d never stand a chance with her, and here I am, sitting across from her, taking this shot and writing these words and I couldn’t be happier. And I realize how madly in love with her I am and I just smile even more. And all these thoughts rush up from just looking at her and all I can say is “Wow!”