I recently got a new job that I work every evening. Its hard work but I’m getting used to it. It pays well and I finally be able to start affording things. But it’s nice. It certainly keeps me from getting bored in the evenings and it lets me clear my head. I go into work, work hard for a while and my head is clear and things just work themselves out. I don’t know why. It just kinda relieves my stress for some reason. And then I have a nice drive home on empty highways. I wasn’t having the best day today, it being Monday, and I was stressed and upset about things. But after work I was calm and happy. I was in a much better mood and it allowed me to apologize to someone that I had hurt.
Today was a busy day. Went to the bank, got a haircut, went to one of my jobs, went to my other job and when I finally got off at ten I made my way to Danville to see Hannah. On the way out there I noticed how cool the full moon and clouds looked. So I kept stopping to get shots. And then, only a few miles away from Hannah’s house, I was driving down a very dark country road, I failed to see a sharp curve in the road and my poor little Honda ended up buried in mud, 20 yards out in a cornfield. Two hours later, after Hannah’s dad, Josh, and I dug, pushed and pulled, we got it out of the field. It was quite a night and one I won’t forget. Despite all the trouble and feeling like a complete idiot, I’d still have to say it was worth it.I got some great shots and had some fun. The shot above was taken before it ended up in the field.
After a long day, hard work, arguing and just feeling stressed out, it was time to tune things out. I just had to relax and chill. So I laid in bed, put in my headphones and picked up Brave New World. It feels so nice to just tune everything and everyone out for a little bit. To just be alone, with music and a book. It calms me down, cheers me up and helps me think. I needed it and after a night’s sleep, I was ready to start a new day.
A pencil, a ruler, and 896 1/4th inch squares = calm. When I was learning to cope with my anxiety and panic attacks, one of the ways they told me to get out of them was to do a repetitive task. Something mindless task that I had to focus on. Something to get my mind off what I was panicking about. And it works. I don’t know why, but it calms me down. I don’t hardly ever have panic attacks now, but doing this still calms me down. Stress, fatigue and anger just piled up tonight, and I had to get out of it. A long week, too many tests, a new job and being pissed off are not a good combination. And I know I have a temper. I know my weaknesses. So I sat down, and 896 1/4th inch squares later, I was calm.
Tonight was spent in the library. Hannah had a psychology paper on hoarding and OCD to write. Luckily I didn’t have any homework so I got to play around with my camera and help her with her homework. After a while the paper became stressful and she took a break. I ended up getting a few funny shots and this was the one she allowed me to put up. She got all the research done for the paper and though I like to think I helped, I honestly just played with my camera and was most likely a major distraction the whole time.
Finally time to relax. After a long, stressful day full of tests, essays, and worries about classes, work, money and the future, I get to settle down and relax with a good book, a cup of tea in my favorite mug and a today’s post to write. I don’t handle stress well and when things to start to build up, even a little bit, I tend to let things get out of control. One or two stressful things turns into me worrying about countless things, doubting my decisions, having anxiety attacks, and me basically reevaluating my life. It’s ridiculous, I know. But after talking to my parents, getting some good news, and finishing my homework, I settled down. And now I get to relax. And I need to learn to control my stress, which is much easier said than done.
I’ve grown to hate Tuesday! Where I am employed it’s ‘Steak Night’ $6.95 bacon wrapped filet, baked potato, soup and salad. It’s a cheap meal, no drink purchase required and you run your ass off for a $3 tip if … Continue reading