Brandy Day246: Black & White in Red

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Timing. Everything in life is about timing. It can make or break a situation, relationship, ruin a good thing or make a good thing horrible. Tonight I believe some things in my life have come full circle. I’ve realized things I’ve suppressed for four years, cried & tried holding on to a piece of my past that wanted to run faster than a wild horse. Part of healing is letting go I suppose. Its hard to let go when you don’t have closure. I don’t know if tonight was closure or complicated things more than they had been.
Love isn’t black & white.

Brandy Day195: Mommy

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You’re never too old for your mom. I am 32 and my mom is my best friend (sorry Mary 😉 ) We’ve been through so much together and no matter what I know she’ll always be there for me and support me.
My mommy and sister came to visit tonight. Mom brought me Ramen noodles, some books & chips and salsa. Homemade salsa :-)!!!
Thank you for everything. All that you do and being a great mom. Always loving me. Though, I happen to love you more 🙂

Brandy Day173: 10 Seconds of Love Trust Fear

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I find it more common than not that we share what we are often afraid to disclose about our self, with those close to us.
We don’t disclose our darkest of demons because we live in fear of judgement, betrayal, loss of respect, even if those demons are ones we didn’t create.  Being trapped in your own personal hell of thoughts & emotions will slowly kill what makes you you.
Listening to someone share their thoughts, someone I thought I knew. Seeing someone I care about be so vulnerable. Hurt so badly. Crying with them, not because of their tears but because I could feel the pain in their heart. Their mind. It was just as real to me as it was to them. I wonder how things would be different between us had we gone ‘demon hunting’ together.
I don’t know that I’ve ever hurt for someone the way I hurt for you. Seeing your pain.  This changes nothing, other than making sense of some things. I also happen to love fishing especially with a Snoopy fishing pole!!
I’ll never be able to give you those 10 seconds or more that you often dream of but I can promise you I can give you love & trust. Fear is only felt until you realize the love and trust are real.
Thank you for loving me enough to trust me.

Brandy Day169: Six Strings

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Late night mini jam session with a friend, my bro & his lady. I love impromptu nights like this. Good fun. We even hit a beach ball around out front, each adult successfully holding onto an adult beverage 🙂
I’m lucky to have friends & family such as I do.

Brandy Day72: More Than You Know

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This here is Mary. She is dating my younger brother Nick. Going through nursing school. Has more than an amazing personality and she’s gorgeous!
Its because of her and Nicks existence that she’s in my life.
I just wanted to take this time to thank her for being such a great friend and supporter. Your friendship and time mean more to me than you’ll ever know. Thanks for always thinking of me and being there for me. :-)!!

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Brandy Day64: Here Kitty

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KC and I road tripped it down to Exotic Feline Rescue here in southern IN. What an amazing trip. These amazing animals in captivity was kind of hard to see but after learning some of their stories I was somehow OK with it. For example two of the tigers were ‘pets’ to a man who was using them to lure children into his home. He was arrested and charged with ‘children crimes’ and now the beautiful cats get to be outdoors in safe environments and well cared for. I’d recommend taking the trip.
Shot during feeding time with such golden eyes.

Chandler Day 4: Don’t Stop Believing

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When I took this shot, I was out driving around in the country on my way to Danville.  I hadn’t ever gone this way and I was having fun taking shots of snow. And then I happened upon this stop sign. And I came to a full stop (for once) and sat there looking at. I had to get a picture. I guess I like this so much because it was so random and I could have easily missed it. But I didn’t. It’s so simple but I like the message. Just don’t stop believing. It doesn’t say a specific thing. Just keep believing. Believe in something. Find something or someone and hold onto it and never let go. Find that one thing you can believe in and hold onto it, no matter what.