Tonight I was a little overconfident in myself. It’s been a long time since I’ve had a proper anxiety attack. But tonight I had one, in one of my trigger locations. I thought I would be fine, since it had been so long. I was wrong. I had an anxiety attack with all the sucky symptoms. It was frustrating, but it passed and I took some medicine to help. I wouldn’t call it a step back, just a reminder that it’s still there. I don’t think it will ever really go away. I just get better at knowing myself and how to take care of myself.
Finally time to relax. After a long, stressful day full of tests, essays, and worries about classes, work, money and the future, I get to settle down and relax with a good book, a cup of tea in my favorite mug and a today’s post to write. I don’t handle stress well and when things to start to build up, even a little bit, I tend to let things get out of control. One or two stressful things turns into me worrying about countless things, doubting my decisions, having anxiety attacks, and me basically reevaluating my life. It’s ridiculous, I know. But after talking to my parents, getting some good news, and finishing my homework, I settled down. And now I get to relax. And I need to learn to control my stress, which is much easier said than done.